07.21.08 (7:16 am) [edit]
I wish i could comprehend my emotions.. My world is perfect.. Yet i miss u.. U who blames me 4 every shit in the world... SIghs terms and conditions.. Was it too much to expect you to be with me.. when I left a lot to be here with u You swore at me, hurt me so much .. abuses that i cannot even account for, that my heart wrenches in that pain. No I am not going to beg to u or go back to u.. even if my heart just wishes for being there with u. I wont be weak.. Ill cry, but be alone..cause I always was I should re
I wish i could comprehend my emotions.. My world is perfect.. Yet i miss u.. U who blames me 4 every shit in the world... SIghs terms and conditions.. Was it too much to expect you to be with me.. when I left a lot to be here with u You swore at me, hurt me so much .. abuses that i cannot even account for, that my heart wrenches in that pain. No I am not going to beg to u or go back to u.. even if my heart just wishes for being there with u. I wont be weak.. Ill cry, but be alone..cause I always was I should re
07.20.08 (12:46 am) [edit]
I do not want another lie, call it a term /condition I want those eye back that soul that haunts me, that love that pulled me I want that guy, not this one, cause he is the one I loved Things changed he changed I do not want a compromise anymore, I do not want to love a stranger I do not accept this, a facade of love, a joke or moments I want everything or nothing
I do not want another lie, call it a term /condition I want those eye back that soul that haunts me, that love that pulled me I want that guy, not this one, cause he is the one I loved Things changed he changed I do not want a compromise anymore, I do not want to love a stranger I do not accept this, a facade of love, a joke or moments I want everything or nothing
07.14.08 (9:09 pm) [edit]
You know in life when you have those clear moments.. well..I think I know what is wrong finally.. This country has sucked me in.. Its like nothing matters anymore. I miss home.. but in my fight to survive here I have Lost myself. I am not myself anymore. I am like a shadow of who I was.. I dun say no.. I take BS. saby is not what was wrong with us.. it is me.. he din change I changed.. I became a person who takes crap.. who stands crap.. From this moment.. i have just one duty.. the one to love me.. towards me.. I take care of myself
You know in life when you have those clear moments.. well..I think I know what is wrong finally.. This country has sucked me in.. Its like nothing matters anymore. I miss home.. but in my fight to survive here I have Lost myself. I am not myself anymore. I am like a shadow of who I was.. I dun say no.. I take BS. saby is not what was wrong with us.. it is me.. he din change I changed.. I became a person who takes crap.. who stands crap.. From this moment.. i have just one duty.. the one to love me.. towards me.. I take care of myself
Eating me inside
07.14.08 (8:34 am) [edit]Whats is this sick feeling that is eating me insude? I wish I knew. I just know something is wrong. I just know something is wrong. I need to be alone.. I need to be alone.. I need to closeout the world.. My heart is beating too fast.. it knows somethin I do not. Its eating me inside,.. like slow poison..death seems near.. Is it true that I am finally out of love? is it true you pushed me out? Is it true that whats missing is a peice of my heart? Maybe I have a lost a battlle for us.. I have lost all faith on us