Love gone bad
08.19.08 (7:57 am) [edit]I think it is a song by Rihanna, but whatever it is it made me think. Think how in the past 1 and a half year my life twisted around another road. Story is simple, I loved a guy a lot, he loved me, we got married, it was perfect. When it is too good to be true, it probably is. 6 Months later I struggled hell and heaven to reach him. Pulled everything and I was in Usa. He did npt do anything, infact he would snap at me if I ask his details for paperwork, hell he did not even tell his parents. I know I know , I should have seen in then. Reaching here, his parents refused to keep me (Duh) so I moved into an apartment. He din move in with me, cause his dad was a disctator.. so what? You do not have a spine.. 8 months later.. i had gone from depression, to abusive nature, to him asking me to give money and what not, to him throwing me once or twice, to love gone bad in every sense. I realised somehwhere what I already knew.. loves gone bad. What did I do? I walked away, mind you it hurts and I still cry at times, but I cannot live in that hell with his bastard blood sucking father and a spineless husband who thinks all he should do to his wife is rule over her. Yes I chose my life over death (slow one) given to me by him. Since i walked away I have been happier, hell I did not realise how miserable I was. I hope I do not have to face him again.
08.06.08 (10:46 am) [edit]
She mourned the death of her love. Cried till her heart felt wrenched out. He was still in shadows. "Turn on that light". The cat cried somewhere ..pure call of love. You cant live in shadows, you cant live with whats dead.. you cant strech what has been You have to walk on.. she curled up as the storm threw its tantrum... it calmed her.. somehow. Ot maded her realise.. what her heart felt was normal.. Her mind soothed her.. she stood with the storm sorrounding her.. It is the end .. my love.. I will walk away.. You are dead.. you have been.. Tears washed away with the rain... She smiled .. n closed the doors ..
She mourned the death of her love. Cried till her heart felt wrenched out. He was still in shadows. "Turn on that light". The cat cried somewhere ..pure call of love. You cant live in shadows, you cant live with whats dead.. you cant strech what has been You have to walk on.. she curled up as the storm threw its tantrum... it calmed her.. somehow. Ot maded her realise.. what her heart felt was normal.. Her mind soothed her.. she stood with the storm sorrounding her.. It is the end .. my love.. I will walk away.. You are dead.. you have been.. Tears washed away with the rain... She smiled .. n closed the doors ..
07.21.08 (7:16 am) [edit]
I wish i could comprehend my emotions.. My world is perfect.. Yet i miss u.. U who blames me 4 every shit in the world... SIghs terms and conditions.. Was it too much to expect you to be with me.. when I left a lot to be here with u You swore at me, hurt me so much .. abuses that i cannot even account for, that my heart wrenches in that pain. No I am not going to beg to u or go back to u.. even if my heart just wishes for being there with u. I wont be weak.. Ill cry, but be alone..cause I always was I should re
I wish i could comprehend my emotions.. My world is perfect.. Yet i miss u.. U who blames me 4 every shit in the world... SIghs terms and conditions.. Was it too much to expect you to be with me.. when I left a lot to be here with u You swore at me, hurt me so much .. abuses that i cannot even account for, that my heart wrenches in that pain. No I am not going to beg to u or go back to u.. even if my heart just wishes for being there with u. I wont be weak.. Ill cry, but be alone..cause I always was I should re